I am Just a Human

I always train myself to be strong,
I always train myself to be smart,
I always try to make myself like a joker,
but everytime I act like a joker,
I have a bad feeling suck like I gonna be look down by the other
or being givin no respect by others...
I jokes juz to make people beside me happy,
I joke is juz to be myself....
Even sometimes I am extremly upset , extremly Emo..
Cz I dont like to let people beside me to worried me much.
but sumtimes,
when you joke..
you are treated as a trash ..
but that great,
cz nobody understand me,
that is what made me feel sad,

I always think that I am strong ,
But I made a mistake...
I am always the weakest guy..
I act to be strong,
but inside my heart are hurt.
everytimes I feel empty...
Until I cant discribe the feeling...
I quite jealous those who have good friend and true friend.
cz they are always not alone..
but me,
I must say YES,
cz I am always alone... =)